Tuesday, June 15, 2010
I need to get better about updating. Week 8 went pretty good I was hoping my counts would be down to zero but they weren't. My count was 110, down which is good but I was still a little disappointed. Patience has never been my strong suit so I've been frustrated knowing I still have so long to go. My counts have to be zero and then we do 8 more weeks. So come on already! Last week was super crazy we went down Sat. to Las Vegas after my big treatment to go to my little sisters graduation on Wed. I was so worn out but glad i went to support her. Wed. night we headed back to Kanab and Thur. morning went to St. George for my treatment. My white counts were to low so they didn't do chemo they gave me a shot to boost my white count and then I had a ct scan of my chest to see if the spots are gone. Hopefully I'll have good news this week about those results. Then Fri. we went back to St. george to get another shot and then headed to Richfield for a funeral. One of my mission companions passed away she was my age and died in her sleep. It has been very devastating to me as we are so close. Her parents asked me to speak at the funeral. It was one of the hardest things I've had to do. We got back Sat. night and had to go Sun. morning again to St. George for another shot and then again Mon. morning for the last one in that series. needless to say this has been one of the hardest weeks of my life. But Mon. night we celebrated my two youngest boys birthdays. That was so fun getting the family together. This week has also made me reflect a lot on my own life with the passing of my dear friend so suddenly and my cancer and seeing so many people go through chemo some of them terminal, it just made me think of how quickly our lives can change. I defiantly want to simplify my life so, no more babysitting and, no more bunco. I really want his next year to be about me and my family and the ones I love the most. We just don't know what's in God's plan for us so we need to make the best of our time here. Tell the people around you how wonderful they are. Love your kids every day like it might be the last time you see them. Kiss your spouse goodnight like you really mean it. And do some good in this world. You will never regret doing a nice thing or setting a good example to those around you. Live everyday the best you can but don't worry about perfection Jesus took care of that, that's what the atonement is for just use what you got and make the best of it. To my dear friend Jenna (aka Pete) I love you and miss you so much. You were an amazing example to me. Give Jesus a high five for me and tell him to hurry this chemo thing along! Lucky to have an angel like you looking down on me.