Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Week four!

Week four has been a crazy one. When we went on Thursday they said my white counts were very low so we would need to come down everyday for three days to get a shot that would stimulate my marrow to produce white cells. So we had to drive the hour and a half Thursday. Fri. Sat. and sun. It was crazy but I did get to go with my little sisters one day to go shopping and that was fun and Mother's day we drove home through Zion and it was so beautiful. And besides being tired I have felt pretty good. The funny thing about chemotherapy is everything they give you to help you has horrible side effects like the iron they give me to boost my red blood count , it makes me super nauseous and can give you a rash. The shots for the white blood cells made me so ache my muscles and my bones. Next thing they give me to help me I'm going to ask if the side effects are worth the help. I mean really! On Mon. our town threw a fundraiser for us. My wonderful volleyball girls organized it and they got so much help from our church and the community. They had a dinner the two grocery stores in town donated all the food they had a craft sale a bake sale and a yard sale. The turn out was amazing there were probably around a thousand people there and when you think that there are probably only four thousand people in the whole town it just blows my mind. It makes me feel so loved. It also shows me that there is so much good in the world. That with all the craziness going on around us there is so much power in just old fashioned love and kindness. It also makes me feel like God is so aware of little me in this big world and he has given me so much support through all these wonderful people!

Monday, May 3, 2010

Week three

Well week three has been full of surprises. The next day after my last post we were driving to my treatment and I was messing with my hair and it started coming out by the handful. They said by week three but I didn't know they ment that day. It was so weird to just out of the blue have your hair fall out like that. But we just came home after the treatments and shaved it. The kids got a kick out of it and it has been a much easier transition for them then I thought it would be. When we went to treatment they first do blood work and then we met with the doc. He said my red blood cells are really low and they would start giving me iron in the iv every week, and if the red count doesn't go up they will have to do a blood transfusion. So everyone pray that the iron works cause the transfusion scares me. Then they told me my white counts were very low too and I needed to stay away from lots of people. So I was feeling pretty discouraged after that visit but then we went back the next day for more treatment and the nurse said my hcg levels were in. Those are the cancer markers that they use for this cancer and starting out I was at 350,000 and now just after two weeks it was down to 18,000. That's no typo it has dropped that drastically so now I feel so happy. I know your prayers are working and the treatment while hard on me is totally kicking cancer's ass! It was just the encouragement I needed. This week has been hard the treatment makes me really sick and being sick makes me more negative and sad but I know in a few days i'll be feeling better. The hair thing has been crazy. It's like looking at a stranger in the mirror. My friend Katie made me a whole bunch of flowers and headbands that I love it gives me a feminine look and doesn't scream cancer like the hats do. I'm so blessed to have such amazing friends.